last week, i hurt

i mean, i
i just
i didnt do anything
i slept
i canceled my hair appointment
i skipped choir
i skipped dance
i skipped bastards
i barely read
i barely thought
all i did was hurt
and try not to cry at work.
and wouldnt talk to anyone about it
for fear of crying

im tearing up thinking about it

mom used to say im so melodramtic
i think
im just sensitive.
to myself. to others' pain. to pain i cause others?

but im also hurt.
and im also pissed.

and more than anything,
im scared
so scared