i thank the Lord for the people i have found (repost from myspace)

december 18, 2008:

I never want to feel bad about who I am.
I never want to cheat myself by wishing I were something I am not.
I never want to dishonor the person I’ve become by pretending to not be her.

I think this might be what it’s all about. Being yourself. Or becoming yourself. The entire journey is to find out who you are and to love that creature. To strive to be the most accurate representation of the You.
And then, all importantly, to find the people who love you for it. The people with whom you have no filter. The people who demand no filter of you. The people who allow you to be most purely You. To find the people who are not so much like you as those who simply fit with you. The ones whose lives and whose Selves are formed in such a way as to be complete with you. The friends who are not friends; the friends who are family.

This is all tumbled up in the labels. In the “best friend” and the “close friends” and the “buddies” but what it really comes down to is that we’re all seeking the people who love us. Not the people who grow to love us, (those people rock, too, but it’s not what im saying)... but the people who it seems are out there loving you before you ever know them. And when you meet, you get to skip past all the bullshit and go straight into perfect harmony, however you define that.

But loving these people is a way of loving yourself, too. Of rewarding yourself for being goodenough with people who are magnificent.

I don’t feel im getting it out well enough. I don’t know if I can say quite properly what I really think. And this is my story, but I’m trying.
My point is, maybe, that there is nothing so simple, nor so noble, as friendship. And I hope we never discount it.